Had to be one of the first people on the West Coast to cop this album. 5/5. #ArianaGrande

Had to be one of the first people on the West Coast to cop this album. 5/5. #ArianaGrande

View from my living room to finish the week. #America (at Broasis)

View from my living room to finish the week. #America (at Broasis)

Field level seats with the sun setting. OH YEAH, and one of the four San Diego Padres fans at Dodger Stadium. #Padres (at Dodger Stadium)

Field level seats with the sun setting. OH YEAH, and one of the four San Diego Padres fans at Dodger Stadium. #Padres (at Dodger Stadium)

TEENAGE MUTANT NINJA TURTLES. #TMNT (at AMC Century City 15)

TEENAGE MUTANT NINJA TURTLES. #TMNT (at AMC Century City 15)

#TBT to when my #ThetaChi Brothers and I raised money and walked around the track for 24 hours to fight cancer.  #RelayforLife (at UCLA Drake Track & Field Stadium)

#TBT to when my #ThetaChi Brothers and I raised money and walked around the track for 24 hours to fight cancer. #RelayforLife (at UCLA Drake Track & Field Stadium)

Sunset at the Beach House. #Summer (at Newport Beach - OC)

Sunset at the Beach House. #Summer (at Newport Beach - OC)

First ever time having beer with both of my Brothers. #SamAdams (at Hooters of Mission Valley)

First ever time having beer with both of my Brothers. #SamAdams (at Hooters of Mission Valley)

First time seeing my Brother in 2 years… Also Galaxy of the Guardians was dope. #TeamRocket (at AMC Plaza Bonita 14)

First time seeing my Brother in 2 years… Also Galaxy of the Guardians was dope. #TeamRocket (at AMC Plaza Bonita 14)

Girlfriend and best friend surprise visited me today! Time for #KBBQ (at Castle 2 BBQ)

Girlfriend and best friend surprise visited me today! Time for #KBBQ (at Castle 2 BBQ)

Back when I use to get straight A’s and go to bed at 11pm. #TBT

Back when I use to get straight A’s and go to bed at 11pm. #TBT

Beautiful view from this morning while hiking with the crew. (at Pacific Palisades Park.)

Beautiful view from this morning while hiking with the crew. (at Pacific Palisades Park.)

Saturday morning hike to Skull Rock.

Saturday morning hike to Skull Rock.

Mr. Popcorn on another Friday at the movies. (at AMC Century City 15)

Mr. Popcorn on another Friday at the movies. (at AMC Century City 15)

Throwback to my fresh “Will you go to #Prom with me?” performance. May 2011. #TBT

Throwback to my fresh “Will you go to #Prom with me?” performance. May 2011. #TBT

Raw, shortened truth

The truth is… I ALWAYS feel insignificant. Not good enough. Not smart enough. Not skilled enough. Not qualified enough. Not enough potential. Never enough anything.

A lot of people look up to me, but I don’t even know why. I don’t even believe in myself.

The only thing holding me up is my optimism that maybe one day I’ll accept and be proud of myself. But if I run out of optimism before that, I don’t even know.